winds

the winds are brewing outside. they are making the eeriest noise. we don't get winds very much down here on the beach.

i've been researching a lot about air the past few days in anticipation of beginning to study with an amazing woman. i am starting to build a real spiritual practice.

i have also been reading a lot about oya. she is the mother of the winds. the swirling chaos of storms and lightning. oya is the destruction and rebirth. change from chaos.

oya protects her children but doesn't baby them. she shows you that you need to be able to stand up to some serious shit. she can teach you how to protect yourself. that you are a priestess of your home.

i realized that i am a little bit afraid of this. i pondered this and asked myself why this would be. i was afraid to be torn down with nothing left. it is then that i realized that i am a strong woman with a strong foundation. i can do this. i want to do this. my foundation is strong if i pay attention and work hard. i will study and do things right.

the fire inside is burning so strongly.